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[09 Jul 2007|03:34pm] |
So, i don't thinkg she wants to go. I think she's just telling me she does because she feels as thought she has to, which is completly not true. I just wish she would tell me whether or not what I think is true. I feel like I'm taking her away form where she feels she needs to be right now. There's a lot going on and they think I don't understand. Well, although i personally haven't been through exactly what they're going through, I've been thorugh a similar situation. I understand how she feels and if she didn't want to come. I just hope that when the time rolls around she won't hestiate to leave for college because she feels as though something will happen when she;s not here that she could've changed. I don't know. I'm just talking and babbling while she's on the phone and locked in her parents bedroom, but I think I just needed to say it. I hope she reads this in time and doesn't think that I'm guilting her into going. I would love more than anything to share the one place on this earth that i love so much with her, but if she doesn't think that she's ready to leave...so be it.
In which case I should figure out a ride situation.
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[10 Jun 2007|01:08pm] |
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I fucking hate stupid people. Does anybody else agree with me? Is there a reason they keep fucking and reporducing making young? WTF? aren't they just getting more and more stupid as they go down the generations. The thing is with stupid people usually comes laziness. Now don't get all offended if you're a dark brown crayola but a hard worker. I'm not talking to you. I'm tlaking about those stupid people that don't do a damn thing and expect the fucking world to be handed to them. I hate the sutpid kids that got a car given to them. I ahte the stupid kids that dont' have a job in any sense and don't fucking do a thing around their hosue and get away with bloody murder. Now I know I know, life's not fair...blah blah blah. But can't we at least try to make it as close as possible? We don't have to giving attention to these people that thrive off of it. We should all kake a stand. If you happen to know a person like this in your life, drop them. Get the fuck away form them. Why do they deserve your time, you friendship? I hate to break it to you, but chances are...they'll stab you in the back to make themselves look better to someone else. I bet, if they haven't already, they'll drop you or ditch you one day for someone who means next to nothing to them. I bet they just met the person and are alredy breaking plans with you cause it's like their new toy. I know know, I've done t to osme of you out there in myspace world, and I'm sorry. I'm honestly fucking sorry. I wish I could take back all the evil things I've ever said or done to anyone. I'm now understanding what that kind of stuff can do to people who thought they were your friends. I'm not asking anyone to repsond to this. I'm not asking anyone to repost it. This isn't a stupid chain letter. This is just me pouring my heart out into a fucking myspace bulletin. So do what you will and say what you might, but thsi is the real me. This is Greg coming out and putting his heart on display for everyone to see. I'm turning over a new leaf. I'm going to try this littlething called trust. I am going to go out on a limb here and put trust into everyone I meet. I know I'm setting myself up for a few let downs along the way, but I have a feeling that in the end. I will be grateful for allowing myself to do this. Again I'm sorry to everyone, and you know who you are. Forgive me? If not now, maybe one down the road we can just get together again and amybe have some lunch or something. I'm moving away in the next couple of days if you didn't know already, and I don't want to elave here with anyhting negative. I don't want to leave here hating anyone or anyone hating me. I'm out of high school, and I'm done with the drama. If you've made it this far, thanks for reading. I'm out.
Greg<33
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There is ONE person in particular at which whom i hope reads this. I'm calling you stupid ass out right now. you want to do this the good ol 'southern' way? let's do this shit. you talk shit, you're not as cool as you think you are, you will accomplish nothing in life except for being the biggest waste of space this world has ever known. I do wish you would come say something to my face, I will lay you out. Go ahead, get all you stupid little BFFs on me too, I don't give a fuck., I'll take them with you. You were a good friend of mine at one point, but ever since you decided that I was inconvenient for you I decided that you were a waste of time. You are the biggest two faced mother fucker anyone has ever met. you are NOT southern, you're from Melbourne. You were never a cowboys fan until this year. SO what you have two maylene shirts? no body gives a fuck. who are you trying to impress? let me clue you in...NOBODY FUCKING CARES!!! I love how no matter what the situation you HAVE to be right, and half the time you have no fucking clue about what you're arguing. You don't do anything more than sit on your fat ass and write shit about other people on your myspace. Yeah, you're fucking cool. Get a fucking job you nigger. you bitch all day about blacks and mexicans not working and just feeding off of all the working americans tax dollars. HEY KID, you're no better than any of them. why don't you get off your ass and do something with your life. prove this whole fucking entry a waste of my time and fucking do something. I know you're laughing your little ass off at home right now talking to whomever the fuck you talk to, but I don't give a fuck. that's the wonderful thing I've learned my senior year of high school, that's why i haven't cared that you and danielle were a bunch of little bitches and decided to run your mouths, it's why I just sit there and watch you walk on by. I DON'T GIVE A FUCK. and I hope you know that.
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well, i know that there are several poeple in this little lJ world that are going to read this just ebcause they want to know if I'm talking shit about them. get over, I have bigger things to worry about. It's March 14th, almost the 15th and I have the rest of march then two months and i'm fucking gone. Not to offend anyone (not that i care if you are) I will not miss SoFl. I can't wait to get the fuck out of this hell hole and go back to the little town of Sebastian, back to firends that actually care about me, and they don't leave because of their new love lifves or because I'm not conveinent. There's a kid up there that's been my best friend since 6th grade. Let me say that he is the ONLY perosn that can ever complain about me being inconvient because I moved away and he's still there for me. He's still got my back no matter what. I would jump on a hand grenade for him, which is WAY more than I can say about anyone down here, except a select two or three. I miss that kid. I hate everytime he asks,"When you comin' up?" and I have to tell him, idk because of work. Let me just say that when I get the fuck out of this house,a nd the fuck out of SoFl I will NOT miss most of you, I will NOT be in contact with most of you, and I retract my previous statement and I will probably be back, but not for any of you. I will fall of the face of the earth so to speak to most of you.
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So I just happen to come over tnis way and notice all thre deppressing entries. I always wondered why everyone posted such negative things here. You do know that journals also are a place to post good things, right? Well, I know not all of you post negative things, so don't jump down my throat. Life has been changing dramaticlly lately, and I don't know why. It could be bad, it could be good, but who cares? It's change. I have Take Action Tour tonight. A Static Lullaby, Emery. :] I was supposed to see ASL back awhile ago with MFV (who is now broken up :[) but no one wanted to go with me. So, yeah. that's life. It's fun. It has it's rough moments but aslong as you just keep trying...you'll pull through I promise. There is always somone for you to lean on, whether you realize it or not. so LJ world. just keep on keepin on!
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[15 Oct 2006|02:24am] |
I'm doing a bunch of random facts about myself also..I'm soo bored.
I'm 6'1"
I have light brown hair and I've only dyed it once
I listen to music way more than I watch TV
I listen to rap more than any other type
I'm black at heart
I have the best girlfriend in the world
Candace Murphy is her name..learn it love it
I don't like professional football all that much, I only watch the games with can
I used to play lacrosse
I played with #91..that's Dennis Rodman's number, and I loved that man(no homo)
I was in band for 6 years of my life
Despite popular belief I'm not racist, I just strongly prefer certain ethnic groups to others
I don't hate people
The only people I hate are Panic! At The Cock Blow..I will kill them and frame Pete Wentz
I just got a phone clal asking for a jimmy
My car is the most ghetto thing you've ever seen, but I love it
I live all the way in BFE pompano beach
My biggest hero in this world is probably The Game
He was ACTUALLY shot where it would kill him, 50 is a joke, and Game has actual talent.
If you got a problem..we can 'knuckle up anytime, any place'
I don't live with any REAL parents
I used to be the biggest pot head ever..I mean I smoked everyday
I quit quite a few months back and I think a special someone was the reason behind that
Charles Edling was a brother seperated at birth
I have some jealousy issues, but I'm learning to deal
I don't like 12yr scene girls..or beer
I have a slight obsession with leapord print
I like to write poetry I just don't tell or show people
My house is very hot right now and i wonder why
One of my biggest pet peeves are when people sing songs when they don't know the words or when they come in early
I love Maine more than any other place in the world
I'm a country boy so get over it, the city pisses me off
These are kind of out of order because i'm typing them as they come to me
I have the BEST show in the world tomorrow night..The Chariot, August Burns Red, Twelve Gauge Valentine, Inhale/Exhale, Destroy The Runner
It's going to be a fucking dance fest
I actually know how to dance, and not just two-step or booty dance, but NO ONE knows that until now.
What's beef? Beef is when you need two gats to go to sleep, Beef is when your moms aint safe up in the street
I'm done..if you want to ask me any question I will answer it, i promise.
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[15 Oct 2006|02:18am] |
So I have tow parts to this post, and one is a poll
Best Sweet Tea Is Where?
I'm gonna say Chic-Fil-A, but if you have any other suggestions, I would greatly appreciate them. And the second part is that I love a girl, who should know who she is..;] She drives to my house after she takes SATs and goes tuxedo shopping with me and my mother..And she puts up with my death metal cause she knows it makes me happy. BOOM SNAP CLAP! <33
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| I'm copying charles here... |
[14 Oct 2006|11:22pm] |
I'm doing a bunch of random facts about myself also..I'm soo bored.
I'm 6'1"
I have light brown hair and I've only dyed it once
I listen to music way more than I watch TV
I listen to rap more than any other type
I'm black at heart
I have the best girlfriend in the world
Candace Murphy is her name..learn it love it
I don't like professional football all that much, I only watch the games with can
I used to play lacrosse
I played with #91..that's Dennis Rodman's number, and I loved that man(no homo)
I was in band for 6 years of my life
Despite popular belief I'm not racist, I just strongly prefer certain ethnic groups to others
I don't hate people
The only people I hate are Panic! At The Cock Blow..I will kill them and frame Pete Wentz
I just got a phone clal asking for a jimmy
My car is the most ghetto thing you've ever seen, but I love it
I live all the way in BFE pompano beach
My biggest hero in this world is probably The Game
He was ACTUALLY shot where it would kill him, 50 is a joke, and Game has actual talent.
If you got a problem..we can 'knuckle up anytime, any place'
I don't live with any REAL parents
I used to be the biggest pot head ever..I mean I smoked everyday
I quit quite a few months back and I think a special someone was the reason behind that
Charles Edling was a brother seperated at birth
I have some jealousy issues, but I'm learning to deal
I don't like 12yr scene girls..or beer
I have a slight obsession with leapord print
I like to write poetry I just don't tell or show people
My house is very hot right now and i wonder why
One of my biggest pet peeves are when people sing songs when they don't know the words or when they come in early
I love Maine more than any other place in the world
I'm a country boy so get over it, the city pisses me off
These are kind of out of order because i'm typing them as they come to me
I have the BEST show in the world tomorrow night..The Chariot, August Burns Red, Twelve Gauge Valentine, Inhale/Exhale, Destroy The Runner
It's going to be a fucking dance fest
I actually know how to dance, and not just two-step or booty dance, but NO ONE knows that until now.
What's beef? Beef is when you need two gats to go to sleep, Beef is when your moms aint safe up in the street
I'm done..if you want to ask me any question I will answer it, i promise.
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[02 Oct 2006|11:40pm] |
So there a girl who makes me smile..
Bigger than I ever have..
I know she knows how I feel...
I'm pretty sure she feels the same...
I've seen her everday this weekend, and there's no sign of me getting sick of her. She's the last person I see before I go to sleep everynight, and I hope to keep that a normal thing. I love her smile and her eyes pierce through me like a hot knife thorugh butter. I want to date her, but I'm afraid it might seem to sson to everyone. I don't want to to worry about this being a rebound thing or this not being completly real. Some of my writing lately has been a lot happier because of all the wonderufl things I've been feeling. I wonder if she'll read this anytime soon?
If you do...I want you to know....you are by far the ebst thing that has ever happened to me.
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| The Grendle Within' |
[12 Sep 2006|11:28pm] |
This isn't about love
But it is about getting your heart broken
Not by a lover
By a completly unexpected someone
Over the last couple of days
I've discovered your secrets & your lies
And now I can't even look you in the eyes
The last couple of months
I was losing respect
But this took the cake
You'll never get any of it back
Not even a speck
The Guidelines, the morals
You raised me to believe
Are not the ones that
You, yourself lead
I could just call you a hypocrite
But this runs so much deeper
One word cannot be used
To describe what a horrible role-model
What a horrible teacher
It will be long
Before I forgive
But I will NEVER forget
the life you couldn't give
I don't wish upon you
Death by any means
Because that would be too easy
You don't deserve your plate clean
You should be publicly humiliated
Stoned on the front lawn
But I feel it best to leave
To just be gone
I won't take away your pride
Your most prized possesion
You'll do it to yourself
You will lessen
The respect others have for you
And the way you make them feel
About personally knowing you
Cause you will reveal
The darkside you have
Deep deown inside
Your anger, Your rage
You know...the caring side
Until I'm lucky enough to leave this place
I'll sleep with one eye open
And an ear to the sky
To make sure no one I truely care about
Has to die.
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[11 Aug 2006|03:22am] |
It's 3:30 in the morning and I need some serious sleep. I have bags under my eyes and i have to be up early tomorrow. I'm pretty sure a nap is in the not too distant futre, like tomorrow afternoon...call and wake me up if anyone wants to hang out, and i mean ANYONE!
<33Greg
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[01 Aug 2006|02:08am] |
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So, my trip to Maine was the MOST amazing part of my summer. I absolutly love it up there, and I have since I was old enought to comprehend me likes and dislikes. I love it so much up there and I ahte it so much down here, at 'home', that I cried my whole way to the airport in Manchester. I honestly didn't want to leave. I was talking to my aunt and she threw out the idea of me moving up there the summer after high school and me going to school up there. I'd have a place to live and a job that pays decent enough. I loev everyone down here that might be reading this, but I just want to get this year o high school over and get the hell out of florida. I knwo some of you might have a problem with my moving so suddenly, but at the same time you'd jump at certain oppertunities as well. This is my chance to move where I've dreamed of living my whole life. I'm jumping at it. I can't wait.<33
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[28 Jul 2006|02:19pm] |
So, I come back to florida tomorrow, and while I'm stoked about it....
I'm really sad to leave here and have to go back down with my dad. I Hate my father and stepmother so fucking much and this was my first time all summer, or really in the ;last 7 or 8 months to get away from them for more than a few hours at a time. This week made me realize how much an asshole my dad is and how much of a stuck-up bitch my stepmother is. If any of you have ever met either one, especially Beth, then you know what the hell I'm bitching about. So that's my rant for today, I'll post pictures and what I did at a later date.
<33Greg
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[23 Jul 2006|11:45pm] |
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So...I'm in Maine, and I have internet access, as you can see.....
I love it up here, I wish I could pac all my friends in a suitcase and live up here forever....it's not hot during the summer...a nice 74 degress with like a 30% humidity...
I'm having a blast....seeing family I haven't seen in a LONG time, but I miss my Niki SOOOO much! She gets back from cali Aug. 4th....
I'm actually doing outdoorsy type stuff while I'm here....Kayaking and such....it's kind of cool.....I learned how to play cribbage, anyone want to play me when I get back?
I'll post pictures when I get home!
Love you all<33
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[21 Jul 2006|10:54pm] |
So, tomorrow morning I have to get up at like 3:15ish to catch a flight to Manchester, NH at 6:55 am....ghey
Idk why we couldn't get a later flight...whatever
Not that anyone will notice I'm gone, but I'll miss you guys!<33
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[20 Jul 2006|02:14pm] |
So, I leave tonight for over a week....is anyone gonna miss me?
I know I'll miss all of you!<33
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I wanted to know everyone's opinion..
Is it ok for guys to cry?
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So, today was amazing...
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[01 Jul 2006|02:30am] |
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OK...here we go:
So I came to the conclusion that girls/chicks/women/females (whatever your prefrence) Don't really look at the "inside" of guys. I come the realization that I'm a pretty EMOtional guy, and I odn't know why they say girls dig that, because it truely sucks! Girls don't want a guy that can express his emotions, they want a guy that they can show off to all their friends and make them jealous, weither it be a football player or a member of a band. I can name probably like 3 or 4 girls off the top of my head who woul;d leave their significant other for a movie star or lead singer of band in a heartbeat and not second guess what they did. And if they didn't LEAVE that perosn completly, they would definitly do things that wouldn't be ok if it was just some schmoe off the street. Girls are the biggest attention needers ever, and no matter your arguement, THEY are right, despite if by all facts they are wrong. Charles i knwo you're oging to agree with me on some of these points. Girls use guys like competition...they don't want a guy because he's sweet or because he ACTUALLY CARES ABOUT HER, they want a guy because their friends want him or because their friends WOULD want him. I always hear the line,"OMG he's soo cute" you know what? what about us boys who aren't so "cute" but actually give a fuck about what's going on in your lives and how you feel about a situation. If you have ever done this i think you should slap yourself in the face RiGHT NOW! DO IT BITCHES!
Now now..I know guys aren't perfect, but I would loike to put a rest to the typical syaing that & I quote,"All guys are pigs." It's definitly not true in any other sense then we eat a lot. I strongly believe that there are some TRUE guys out there who care about thing more than just looks and easiness.
I know some of you are going to comment saying,Greg, you're such a womanHATEr, but you know what? FUCK YOU! it's my journal I do what I want! & yes, I do have a girlfriend,a nd I'm VERY happy with her, and i wouldn't trade her for the world, but i can't help but get this feeling osmeitmes,. and yes it does bother me, that if some hott movie/music star came aorund town and gave her the time of day she might just consider leaving me for a chance with this joeSOMEBODY...eh, whatever, that's my rant.
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